Happy Grateful Tears

It's been a good day. An emotional day. For some reason, I can't stop crying. And it's not that I'm scared. I know I'm going to conquer this. It that there are so many people and animals that I love and care about and that I want to be with every single day. And so being in this room for the next however many days -- 28 days -- and then being further away from our home, it's just really hard and it is scary, you know? I've got two bags of different chemos going into me right now. It's new. I've never done this before, so yeah, it's a little scary. It's a lot of unknowns, but I stick by how I said that I am going to control my mindset and believe that there's another way of getting through this and believe that there is a way that I can get through this conditioning chemo in a way, knowing that this is what is going to make the perfect space for these new STEM cells to live in my body. This is what is necessary in order to have a successful transplant.
Hey everybody, it's Bek Keat. 

We're here, day two, and day one of Siri's chemo blast for her STEM cell transplant, and this is -- look at that portrait. That's her horsey. And then that's her family. That is to inspire her through her greatest triumph, yet to come. And we have up her vision board up here. Amazing people that's been a huge part of the Siri's life on here. Doggies there.

A happy life over there. Don't forget that. 

A happy life. And we have...

My love corner. 

Her love corner. There is her own stage and Tony's stages. And Gracie and Vinny, our little angel, and some of the gifts that these amazing people have sent. And here is, the one and only incredible bright princess warrior. My beautiful, beautiful wife.

Hi everyone. It's been a good day. An emotional day. For some reason, I can't stop crying. And it's not that I'm scared. I know I'm going to conquer this. It that there are so many people and animals that I love and care about and that I want to be with every single day. And so being in this room for the next however many days -- 28 days -- and then being further away from our home, it's just really hard and it is scary, you know? I've got two bags of different chemos going into me right now. It's new. I've never done this before, so yeah, it's a little scary. It's a lot of unknowns, but I stick by how I said that I am going to control my mindset and believe that there's another way of getting through this and believe that there is a way that I can get through this conditioning chemo in a way, knowing that this is what is going to make the perfect space for these new STEM cells to live in my body. This is what is necessary in order to have a successful transplant.

When I look at it that way, I am--my goal is just to live in a beautiful state in as many moments as possible. That's my goal. That's my intention. I will do everything in my power to get through this with this little discomfort as possible and stay tuned. I pray that I'll be able to continue on this path because I do think that mindset and love, and it's like I've always said to all of you, love heals, love heals, and part of that is loving yourself.

And one thing that I've come up with on this journey is like what would you do for yourself if you were faced with life or death? How deep would you dig for yourself? How much would you go to bat for yourself? And I'm realizing just how much I love myself because I will do everything in my power to conquer this cancer. And I know that I will. 

So thank you, everyone. I hope to post as much as I can. We'll see how things go. But you are with me in my thoughts.  My friends, my athletes, my family, my animals. Everything that makes me happy. I'm going to do a lot of reading, a lot of meditating, a lot of priming, a lot of praying, and a lot of journaling. And, that's gonna be my time here and a lot of love. My amazing family, my wife and my mom. My mom slept here last night. My wife is sleeping here with me tonight and it makes all the difference in the world. I love you all so much. Thank you. I love you. These are happy tears that I have. All of you. I'm so grateful. I love you.

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